indeed, ive been feeling rather emotional for the past couple of days. ive been talking to myself? checked, i think ive been doing that. perhaps for some sort of self-reflection to sort things out myself. now did i realise that sometimes im just not leading the kind of life i want to live. its so different and the people around you makes it such an annoying place to live in. yes my family and friends have been playing a huge part and im thankful for that. but why am i unhappy, like now? alot of question marks are going through my mind now.
but what can i do? ive been trying to avoid things i shouldnt do really hard. sometimes a fall can help one amend his/her mistakes, not committing anymore and i really hope i can be just like that, remember it once and forever. i dont wanna be a culprit myself, ending up making myself feel so sad and depressed. oh talking about it, i havent cried for a real long time. maybe the only time i cried was to cry myself to sleep or in my dreams. well... not that i can remember of.
today was finally the day i decided to make use of my day to go out. i thought i was a shopaholic. i thought i am a shopaholic but many other reasons restricted me from doing so. im saving all up for hong kong and switz trip. my friend asked me for vietnam trip, i was like "huh? erm but i dont have any more leave left." what to do? its either i forgo one or i choose to take it all. well the latter sounds a whole lot better but where am i going to dig up money and leave? if only im entitled to 21 days, my life will be in the world of cadbury.
met up with my cousin for town. rather good weather but the later part, just like the rain drenched everything. i introduced him to AMBUSH (yes, pat if you are reading this, im still waiting for you to meet up with me for ambush!). it was good, i really like the pasta there. hahaha.. satisfied man! then i bought royce chocs, as usual this a supplement for me over the weekend when im home. i cant leave without snacks! then we walked around and i thought it should be time for me to upgrade my ipod. the memorys full and theres some screen defect, so im planning to get an itouch. good deals for the great singapore sale so... thursday we shall see after i seek my moms opinion. btw, ishop at cineleisure seems to be closing down. theres no stock left and the sales team is like shit, real shit. they can spend the time chatting with one another instead of entertaining a potential customer like me! hahaha im kidding.
we headed over to heeren only to realise that the place has died down so much. we used to see so many students in uniform walking around town like theres no more school ever again. but today, its empty, blank, almost nothing only the clothes hanging! probably marche moved out and the many changes on going around, im not sure but i do miss the crowded days at heeren. all the students from raffles, st andrews, ac and blahblah just all the good schools around town, the students are gone!
finally bought the tickets to watch the play at national library. im looking forward to not just the play but also meeting up with my former coursemates. i miss them, not thoroughly but i miss them as much as i miss going to japan again! anyways, its all settled man!
a visit to the new mall orchard central was good. its a different mall with different concept, more or less predicting that they will sell the same kinda stuffs but i think the environment makes a lot of difference in the shopping experience. im amazed by how different it looks, so my next target shall be... shopping at the new mall when it all opens. then came to me the good deal of the itouch. hahaha... thursday shall be the day!
thickskinned enough, okay im not because im god damn serious about this. i walked into bulgari after several thoughts. its just me, i dont give a shit the way i dress or whatsoever. i want to help the children, the poor children somewhere around the world. i want to do charity like how i will help when the need arises like the sichuan earthquake. the jewellery is omg!!! i laid my fingers on it shamelessly. the salesgirl looked at me like i can never afford but planning to plot a robbery. its just very delicate, very very nice for its helping the charity, why not? my next pay comes, im definitely putting it in my wishlist! at least to get it by the end of this year!
raining didnt stop my mood for more shopping. i did window more than real shopping because im going to save up remember? i waited for taxi at ngee ann city for half an hour! the queue was so long which reminded me of people queuing to get the hello kitties at mcdonalds. oh well... i finally gotten one and cabbed down to st regis.
nothing else can awe me as much as this hotel. hahaha the moment i step off from the cab, i was greeted by the doorman who was dressed smartly in white. the next thing that greeted me was the circular glass-bubble with huge crystal chandelier hanging from above. next i paraded to the main lobby, seriously the exaggerated decors are like super luxury! really the nicest hotels ive seen in singapore which are either the ritz or the fullerton, now comes this, it made me think ive just stepped into another world. the service was very very good, they go the extra mile to do everything for you. its very much like how ritz-carlton singapore used to be. the feeling came, it makes me feel like checking in to the hotel and stay there forever. MAKE IT MY HOME! but the thought vanished after i looked at the time on my phone. =( i left after i settled my stuffs and headed to buy my cheesecake from the hilton.
then i made my way home, walking pass crowds after crowds. and again, ion orchard caught my attention! hahaha, i didnt fall down this time and run away! went home happily without worries. i was just so happy that ive gotten almost what i wanted in my shopping list for today, besides the itouch. it was very very tempting but i got to pull back my hands and shutting up my mouth from telling the sales staff that i want to bring home one. the urge is just complete madness, i think ive been depriving myself from town and buying lately hence resulting in this. sigh, just hope hong kong trip can heal everything and my desire to buy new stuffs. payday is coming too so that of course gives me another reason to buy. dont know why i have this kind of mentality, im sick in the mind. probably this is the only way i can cheer myself up, makes things better so that i wont fall into depression and feel emotional suddenly.
its time for me to sleep! another round of suffering and torturing night, plus its a combo as i will be put in charge. im dead sure i will screw things up big time for myself and the others. please forgive me but i will try my best. weekend gone this week with duty also. SIAN! thank goodness the later weekends will be good ones, i should start plans with my friends! ive been flying many b777-300 to one of my friends. its time i should make it up for him, i feel really really bad.
