dont know how to start off with this entry actually. id prefer speaking it out than to blog it, thinking of the best words in the world to describe how i am feeling right now. haha of course its nothing to do with relationships since ive always been single and i think i will become a monk one day la.
being in the new unit is still something very very new. the whole experience and all, im really not used to it. its now as if im living alone, doing my own things and basically, i have to be very "independent" to a certain extent. im not sure if this is what i will be facing in the next one year but seriously, the feeling is quite horrible. ive been messaging my friends and calling them many times to actually find something to do. perhaps right now, im still new so there isnt much things for me to do. the stress you get just by sitting in the office and reading newspaper or some newsletter is just... unbelievable. its like almost every now and then, you're being watched and at any time, anyone who isnt in a good mood seeing you doing something like that, they may even plan to chop off your head.
i still miss those trainee days very much. even though endless shit and erm.. basically no control over any thing yet, you have the best company. now its so quiet around me, even when i walk around the camp, its just myself. hahaha... i think i might just contract autism one day.
as usual, nothing much over the week. everything seems new and weird. still trying my best to adapt to it and staying low profile. im not going to make many friends and neither enemies. i just want to remain as it is la. i dont know what to say actually, its just so different. rather stressful when days pass by i guess, thats what i feel.
i want to watch stef sun's concert! pat if you are reading this, please tell me how? haha we need to advise each other! you can go for both stef sun and mayday since you are so rich. you always say you are poor but when the day comes, money will just pop out from nowhere and you'll have money to pay. so dont worry pat! we shall go together since we are there to most importantly listen to her songs. hahaha...
thats all for today!
