hooray to whatever im doing now because i get to stayout for this one week till next tuesday! (thanks for the course that im attending right now) wednesday will be my doomsday because i will be reporting back to my own camp and get myself prepared for new things. i am seriously not looking forward to it at all, yes not a single bit la. i dread the feeling of adapting to new environment and getting to know people all over again. its an opera show when you have to put on a mask first then start revealing who you really are. its just that that i hate doing most. i dont want to create any impression as a good, kind and obedient soldier. i just want to be myself for who i really am and whatever la, i just want to remain as low-profile as possible for this once. i managed to at the start of my couse in AI, but i dont know why i ended up being one of the few "famous/infamous" people. heck it.
new chapter begins with my new unit at 23sa, at the same camp. thank goodness its the same place which is near my house but the thought that it will be with a different group of people makes me sick. like ive said, im tired of those friends-making session la. im not a socialite what, why the hell they always split us up over and over again. anyways, this also meant that ive passed out successfully as a third sergeant in the armed forces. im happy that this is something ive managed to achieve so far in the army, though knowing very well that i wont excel nor will i chiong for my life. i will just do my best and not hurt myself just to get awards and create impressions. last weeks parade was super fun, guess it was better than bmt's. i wont be posting up any photos but if you are really interested to see them, find them in my facebook account then.
my right thumb is very painful now. bet its the messaging ive been doing since monday. either updating myself with my friends or gossiping about things with my friends. i know its not right to do so during lecture times but its really very boring sometimes. i didnt sleep, i really didnt. i merely looked somewhere else, stare into space but my ears are still listening to what they've got to say. but whatever it is right, it sort of made me understand more on what ive been doing since my bmt days la. if not, i think i could have just done it blindly until the day i ord from army service. oh well...
nothing much la, just getting upset over my new posting, my mind hanging in suspense on whats next for me and many many other things. life was supposedly getting sweeter and better but i really start to not believe in this. what to do? im going to carry on with it for the next one year plus before i can sayonara to it. plus im the only one there, i dont know if i can handle it with the rest of them who are totally new and dont even know a single bit about them. hence i shall conclude that at any time, i might just go into depression. joking la.
okay im going to end here. tomorrows going to be a short day i hope. then weekends! oh so enjoyable. time passes during your slackest time. i know this entry is very random but all i can think of ending this entry is, i have only three apples left in my pocket. i used to have ten in bmt but its starting to decrease day by day.
