tomorrow will be the day i surrender two years of my time to the nation. the thought of it makes me feel really really... something i cant describe with just a few words. i will miss so many things such as my family, friends, bed, freedom of live and everything. most importantly, my family.
i know it will be tough and its all going to be harsh. how am i going to endure it all for two years? this sets me thinking and thinking. initially, the worry wasnt there but now its all coming. random thoughts, its as if back to the time when i had to try so hard to get into a poly with my scores. worrying every single second on the outcome... =( im not a single second happy, not at all but i still got to go through this no matter what, unless i leave singapore for another place - which obviously i cant.
botak day shall commence today and this will start a new chapter of my life. sad to say, it wont be something i'd enjoy, neither will my family too. but all i can do right now, is to enjoy every single moment before i embark on my new journey in army life and making sure i do whatever i can to make myself think positively.
thanks to all the nineteen years and nine months of life which i have enjoyed so much, so so much that after two years, i will want continue to lead again! and again, my family will be the ones i will miss most. nothing else.
