as im counting my last week with mandarin, this sense of "belonging" came to my mind and i felt emotional. its as if tears will start to well up my eyes. i know its a place i will not want to return for long-term but the bond i have with the people there. it makes me feel that the year spent there was all worth the while. i didnt expect myself to come to this state, where i will feel sad about leaving this terrible place. a place ive never imagined myself to be. a place ive never thought of making it a start to my career path.
it came and it went. it was like a breeze, sounds easy but the amount of shit and happiness ive encountered can never be compared to the bond i share with everyone there. they may have left for a better place, but the remaining are the ones who brighten up my days and make me look forward to work. times flies, its another year and its coming to an end. well, a day ive been praying and hoping for to come and this time, its really here. now i know i missed the opportunities to treasure certain things, certain people. the more i should treasure now, i told myself. let them take me, my kindness and care for granted. leave it, at least i leave a good impression behind before i leave.
not too sure if the people will miss me as much as i will miss them. nevertheless i hope they have enjoyed themselves as much as i did during the times we went through - its thick and thin. we fight for our own rights, we endure the shit that will be thrown to us. sigh, its now coming to an end and closes this chapter in my life. i miss my younger days when i dont have to think and worry so much.
friends that will be kept, i know who they are. friends whom i know i will lose contact with, i know it well. be it someone whom ive been really close to now, in the past and once, they have been the great people around me. they can be the ones who accompanied me through, went breaks with me and so on. they are always asking me to pull myself up and be confident in whatever i do because they know i can do it. alot of people to thank and im preparing some little gifts for them before i leave. they are also the ones who made me grow older, understand more about this industry and society. they let me experience and realise part of my dream. never have i thought of myself doing things related to the hotel. this work experience, except the workload, has been rather wonderful.
i hope before i leave, a great impression will be left in their minds la. at least they can remember someone who is always so irritating and being the loudest. and as i move on to the next phase of my life, i hope they will continue to do their best. and when i drop by, i still see the same people.
it will be my last week so basically im in a holiday mood already. i guess now, i know hows the feeling of the others who left way before me. the feeling is so good and relax. but memories of the past just keep flashing across my mind and reminding me to treasure what i have now - the things, the people around me. my cousin, pat, told me the same thing too. i guess i really should. life is so short, right?
alright, next weeks going to be a busy week for me. keeps me occupied so that i wont be thinking too much and feel sadness. hahaha maybe i'll feel extremely frustrated and hate the place. anyways, its gonna be busy and i shall spend quality time with the people at work. okay, till then i should start worrying about my report and the celebration with my cliques. hahaha, die hard friends/best project partners okay! laters. =)
