in the midst of doing my report, i noticed that no matter how much that ive typed, the number of word count stays stagnant. its as if ive done nothing to it and all i could do was to recall and ensure that i dont leave anything out. but im tired, my brain juices is drying up like water being evaporated in a desert. sigh, i guess im tired.
numbered days and all im doing now is counting down. but... hails national service on an auspicious date, 12 september and im in for shit. i know its going to be damn tough and dirty. i know i can never ever get the luxury of cakes and priceless freedom. oh well, i have to go through unless i run away and get myself jailed for the rest of my life. im not that stupid la. anyway, today was pretty smooth i should say. work was so-so and i feel the lethargy getting into me already even though i try to look forward to work. but it all depends on who you work with and you see if you can click with your colleagues. or otherwise the day will be in a puddle of water, getting yourself wet and hurt. but... im still tired even when im working with my best partners. erm, cant really say we coordinate damn well la, at least we can have fun while working and laughing our asses off over every single thing. if only the schedule turns out well.
today i was being f**ked by a guest. he told me that straight into my face and i just said thank you very much sir. he is a thousand years demon who thinks highly of himself. hes just a piece of shitface with maggots growing around his **toot** and he just wants some pleasure. totally sicko and i was even so kind to advise him on those cancellation charges. goddammit but im fine and not affected. i was calm and cool when handling it. i didnt raise my voice either hence, that explains my tiredness. im immune to all these already after... 10 months?
was at desmonds 21st birthday and it was a gathering for the usual group. erm, it was once in awhile and i enjoyed myself pretty much with the company. it just seemed like i can open up myself and do all those silly stuff and laugh nonstop infront of them. its weird and i really think thats who i am. thats when i throw away that mask on my face and really really just let everything off my head. i miss school badly and i dont mind doing all those projects again despite the research, time and last minute rushing. I MISS SCHOOL AND CAN I GO BACK TO THOSE GOOD OLD DAYS???
anyway, after work today was a short trip with my hotel colleague and lunch buddy. really nice people and they are the ones who can actually brighten up my days in this dull hotel. im serious, otherwise i think i'd have already gotten terminated for the bad mood. i swear, without this bunch of fun people in the hotel, life will be so so sad and as one of my colleagues was saying this morning, "life is so short..." it just sounded damn drama. well, i should treasure every minute and second when im with them now before leaving the hotel in another 6-7 weeks' time. its fast! everythings coming to an end and im only starting my 15000 words report like now? hahahahah, i doubt i can ever complete it la.
the weathers crazy la. its damn humid now plus there seemed like theres no ventilation at all! why cant it rain now and let me have a good sleep? arrrggghhhh.....
oh mothers day was celebrated on saturday night at changi village hotel. the pastas, pizzas and tenderloin were fantastic la. i hope i could eat more but i cant swallow them already. i even gave up my dessert lor. =( it was a great dinner and the hotels nice. so much like a bali getaway because of its location and design. i love the swimming pool very very much.
okay la, i think i should go to sleep and prepare for work tomorrow. its gonna be shitty days again because occupancy is picking up and rooms are being overbooked. WHERE THE HELL AM I GOING TO BUILD A ROOM FOR YOU WITH YOUR TRILLION REQUESTS?!?!?!?!?!?!?! KNS!
