this marks the 620th entry in my blog which has been running for, coming to 4 years and im glad i started it with the influence of my cousin, pattilicious, back then. its a good place to share feelings/emotions, rants and all sorts of mood and erm just simply everything from school, personal life, family, friends and blahblah. although these 4 years werent smooth sailing, especially the year when i did real badly for my Os, i guess that was the main challenge i had so far because the scores just couldnt get me anywhere. no doubt ive always wanted to join shatec since sec three days but then again, i hoped i could go into temasek poly or some other decent places. i really cant imagine how much i wanted to try out the three months junior college and i knew i couldnt get in. somehow, i was, yet again, influenced by my, then, friend whom ive lost contact with totally, to try out one junior college (far from possible) - *drum rolls* AC.
anyways, its all in the past and indeed, it was a flamboyant teenage life la. i treasured every single moment with my family and friends plus the fact that i know things will not be as good as before. then again, i tried my best to please both sides and balance them well. i remember going out every single weekend with my friends and in my mind, going to town was like sleeping in heaven. the pocket money i got was really good and that amount could make me survive for as long as two weeks i swear, or even longer. my mom just hand me the money and i'd better ensure it comes back not a single cent less because i know very well i shouldnt splurge, unless on food. we dont eat delicacies and we dont buy real branded. we eat nydc and marche which was one of the hippest cafes around and we buy clothes from topshop/topman, bugis, zara and shops in heeren and far east. the feeling was great and one of the most memorable thing was, i had to buy durian puffs from goodwood park every now and then. its just irresistable and i know its time to get it again this year. i was really sick of durian puffs during the marriott days because we could just simply grab them from the pastry kitchen and munch them down our stomach without any costs. i love marriott, till this very day.
things have changed for sure, including friends around you then. in my inbox, it reads the same group of smses i get every day, week and month and im glad this group of friends are the ones i can rely on, despite knowing that we will be going to different places in future. some are leaving for italy, some to switz and some planning to dubai. where will i go? im not too sure but if im given a chance to study overseas, i definitely will and i know i will hate to leave home. but thats for the sake of my future so... we shall see. theres still national service to go, so such plans will have to come later but its already running in my mind.
mixed feelings. this entry is rather, or very random but i think its one of the longest entries ever since i started my internship. i quite enjoy work today with the group of people but it just felt weird, totally. i dont know what happened but yes, somethings just not right to me. i try to look forward to work everyday but i just cannot do it the moment i have to leave my house. if only things can return to the past, i hope it will last forever. i miss spending the times with the other trainees and old staffs during the xmas season.
today we had this stupid trainee's meeting and i think its lame. i was late and i had to tell the biggest joke of the day hence i "sacrificed" the training assistant and made a fool of her infront of the others. i know its bad but i just cant help it. im good when it comes naturally to my mind but when im told to, its just blank in my head. but whatever it is, i hope it made everyone happy.
wednesdays the day i have to think nonstop. my friend called me for clubbing and its with my hotel colleagues. its gonna be weird and i predict it will not be as good as i thought of initially. anyway, let nature takes its course and i shall decide again later. sigh, just when everythings going fine, things will just happen and spoil it.
this entry suck and its boring to the core. if you think this entry is really random and messed up, i guess it explains the feeling im having right now. its just in a mess and it only comes in place when im with my family, not just my parents and sister but the family as a whole. oh wells, whatever it is i just need some time to think and reflect over the stuffs and get myself calmed down. im hoping to meet up with my usual group of friends by this week and laugh over all sorts of matters. at least it can let me stay away from those thinkings, for awhile. till then, laters.
